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Mistaken Identity (Demo)
03:42
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If I could have seen
what you would do to me
I never would have let you
kiss me on the street.
If I would have known
how much farther I had to go
then maybe I would've
found the strength to tell you no.
It's a case of
mistaken identity.
I was wrong about you
and you were wrong me
too.
When I am alone
I obsess over my phone, cuz I'm needy.
What if someone I know needs me?
And as I feed the feeling, it grows and it feeds me.
It's a case of
mistaken identity.
I was wrong about you,
but more importantly,
I was wrong about me.
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If I was born to safe your life then I have failed.
I have failed, yeah I have failed.
So what am I supposed to do with all this time,
All this time to make myself miserable?
And I can't seem to let sleepin' dogs lie.
You've been gone for all this time.
All this time, all this time,
and you're still on my mind.
And I can't seem to let sleepin' dogs lie.
You've been gone for all this time.
All this time, all this time,
and you're still on my mind.
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The night I drove you home from the cocktail bar
where I couldn't afford to drink
I was prayin' that you wouldn't smell the smoke in my car
It's been a really stressful week
Then you click through my CD changer
and we both try to sing
and I can tell that I'm in danger
You say you can't help yourself
You say you can't help yourself
Around me
The night that we were fightin' in your downtown loft
I think you should've let me leave
Or maybe I should've let myself
I knew what was happening
And you still want my friendship now
But I resent your greed
Besides, I'm workin' on myself now
Do you really need it all?
Do you really need it all
and me?
I wanted you to want me
I didn't want to see
What I didn't want to see
But now it's time for me
The night I saw you with her after droppin' LSD
I was seein' gold stars around you, I was seein' them around me
Then I went home all by myself and I swore I was free
I don't need anybody else
And who am I supposed to love?
Who else am I supposed to love
but me?
but me?
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Hard 2 Live (Demo)
02:56
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I'm sorry I forgot which day you died
I wasn't movin' on, I was just tryin' to survive
It's hard to live
I'm sorry I am not the person I was then
I'm yearnin' for the days when you still were my friend, and
It's hard to live
Yeah, it's hard to live without you
It's hard to live without you
I'm sorry for the heartless things I said that night
But how was I to know that it was our final fight? And
It's hard to live
Yeah, it's hard to live without you
Yeah it's hard to live without you
I'm sorry for the pain that I know you felt
I wish that I had known or you had asked me for help
We could have hurt together for the rest of our lives
Now everyone I know has never looked in your eyes, and
I know that
It's hard to live
It's hard to live, but
It's hard to live without you
It's hard to live without you
It's hard to live without you.
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I saw you with again
Tuesday night
After you told me you had work to do
That wasn't right
But I think you were overzealous
To text me sayin' you were jealous
of Annabelle
And I don't remember how I replied
But I'm pretty sure I lied
and wished you well
Well, I really wish I'd said
Go to hell!
When Erin told me
what you did to her
I wanted to break into your bougie apartment
and make you hurt
And I'm not bein' hyperbolic
when I say that you're neurotic
and self-obsessed
And frankly, I'm ashamed I bought it
I thought by now I'd learn to audit
for narcissists
And I really wish
yeah I really wish
we'd never kissed.
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Quarantine Song (Demo)
04:06
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I thought of Alex yesterday
All the stupid things he used to say
The night he took a taxi home
I don't know when they shut off his phone
When he folded, called my bluff
Man, it's been years and I'm still stuck
And I don't miss him half as much
as I wanna follow suit
Royal flush?
Blood stained rug
Do you wonder I went?
You used to think that I was heaven-sent
or at least charming and confident
at least a slut with common sense
But I don't know where you got off
just goin' on about how I am soft
and how you can't control yourself
How was I supposed to've felt?
And now I haven't seen you in a month
and I'm pretty sure you fell in love
Dreamin' of a better day
in the future, far away
Would anybody know I'm gone?
I've been stuck inside for so long
And when they go inside my home
They'll maggots pickin' at my bones
I never was that good at sayin' no
They'll have to find my cat another home
But at the very least they'll know
that I know how
to be alone
to be alone
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I had you right there
In your apartment, in my underwear
I told you the truth
But you didn't wanna hear it, did you?
I had it right there
Your fingers in my hair
I lied to myself too, but
I didn't wanna admit that to you
I didn't wanna admit that to you
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The Cure (Demo)
02:55
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I
wanted to die
for such a long time
but finally, I'm cured
'Cuz I
kept on tryin'
with this iron will of mine
'til I was reborn pure
of all of these unreasonable thoughts
and all of my anxieties
all of the inconvenient
realities
Now I
never cry
on the day my parents die
or when I break my own heart
And I
tell my friends I'm fine
and I'm actually fine
while my life's fallin' apart
'Cuz I learned how to compartmentalize
everything that makes me more real
and I wish that I could show them
how I healed
But my cure can't help you
if you still wanna life
'cuz the only way to feel
is to feel all of it
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Cowgirl's Lament (Demo)
03:31
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Just another morning where I can't seem to get out of bed
I wanna sleep in soundly
and yet I rise with the sun
I kept myself up thinkin'
about someone
But now I know that I'm a fool
for tryin' to get my hands on you
When I was just a child
I didn't have much fun
I really used to believe it made me
smarter than everyone
But now I know that I'm a fool
for thinkin' I could see through you
We could've been so much more
Hell, you could've had me on the floor
I don't wanna be a sore loser
but I thought you wouldn't choose her
But now I know that I'm a fool
for tryin' to get my hands on you
Yeah, now I know that I'm a fool
for thinkin' that I could get through to you
And when it comes down to it
I just wanna ask myself, "what were you thinkin?"
It's like every part of my body knew that it wasn't right, but
my head just went away with it anyway
And I may not understand you any better,
but I understand myself a whole lot more
I think I might finally get some sleep tonight
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Fine (Demo)
02:46
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I step outside
I pluck some grapes from the vine
and everything if fine
I ride my bike
I go straight through the light
and everything is fine
Dreamin' that one day
it'll all be okay
but there's just one way
to make that today
I toe the line
I get scared, I run and hide
and everything
I stay, I fight
I build a better life
and everything
and everything
and everything is fine
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katie van sleen Salt Lake City, Utah
i hate music but I also love it
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